[ those noises would be worrying if it were anyone but kaiser. if he was a younger man he'd wonder if he even did a good job, though never ask because god if that wouldn't be so mortifying. as he is now, noa doesn't have any outward reaction to kaiser going through the five stages of grief in under a minute. for one, he's too busy still sipping from his water and roughly clearing his throat. for another...
it's a little too relatable. noa understands kaiser is deeply repressed and averse to any touch he doesn't initiate, and it's like looking from the outside in at his own experience as a repressed youth. with his tank build, stoic attitude, and a face that made him look a few years older than he was, everyone in the youth academy thought noa was getting the most action. it wasn't uncommon to go out for a night to the club and catch the attention of women who meant business, so the rumors were never-ending. in reality, noa never perceived himself as someone with sexual urges until he began fooling around with jin. the first time they had sex, jin insisted he be on top and it was... terrible, so good, disgusting, mind numbing. noa felt like a feral beast who had just gotten a chunk bitten out of him, bleeding and dying crushed into the mattress, yet the euphoria cascading over his body told another story.
he doesn't think he made the noises kaiser did now, but he remembers clawing the sheets and groaning into the pillow trapped between bodily pleasure and mental anguish. jin raked nails down his back while panting like a fevered dog, his voice all too pleased when he asked how he felt, and noa wanted to killed him with his bare hands.
noa breathes in and wipes the sweat off his brow, shaking the hand of his hand off before turning to look at kaiser. he almost wants to ask if kaiser can really handle it, because he looks so very awful right now, but he thinks better than to insult a wounded animal. ]
Sure. [ his voice is hoarse and ragged and he doesn't even try to disguise it before stepping back to the bed. the bulge in his sweatpants is all the more evident when he sits. ] Just don't deep throat like I did. You'll choke.
[ he's not trying to insult him but! he will choke. noa hasn't done that in a while and he barely made it through. it's a technique and a first-timer will be very sorry for attempting it. ]
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it's a little too relatable. noa understands kaiser is deeply repressed and averse to any touch he doesn't initiate, and it's like looking from the outside in at his own experience as a repressed youth. with his tank build, stoic attitude, and a face that made him look a few years older than he was, everyone in the youth academy thought noa was getting the most action. it wasn't uncommon to go out for a night to the club and catch the attention of women who meant business, so the rumors were never-ending. in reality, noa never perceived himself as someone with sexual urges until he began fooling around with jin. the first time they had sex, jin insisted he be on top and it was... terrible, so good, disgusting, mind numbing. noa felt like a feral beast who had just gotten a chunk bitten out of him, bleeding and dying crushed into the mattress, yet the euphoria cascading over his body told another story.
he doesn't think he made the noises kaiser did now, but he remembers clawing the sheets and groaning into the pillow trapped between bodily pleasure and mental anguish. jin raked nails down his back while panting like a fevered dog, his voice all too pleased when he asked how he felt, and noa wanted to killed him with his bare hands.
noa breathes in and wipes the sweat off his brow, shaking the hand of his hand off before turning to look at kaiser. he almost wants to ask if kaiser can really handle it, because he looks so very awful right now, but he thinks better than to insult a wounded animal. ]
Sure. [ his voice is hoarse and ragged and he doesn't even try to disguise it before stepping back to the bed. the bulge in his sweatpants is all the more evident when he sits. ] Just don't deep throat like I did. You'll choke.
[ he's not trying to insult him but! he will choke. noa hasn't done that in a while and he barely made it through. it's a technique and a first-timer will be very sorry for attempting it. ]