IT'S NOT ABOUT SAYING THE RIGHT THING KAISER, THERE *IS* NO RIGHT THING, THERE IS ONLY A CONCLUSION WE REACH TOGETHER BY TELLING EACH OTHER OUR TRUE FEELINGS.
[ truthfully, riddle feels out of his element, lecturing someone else on how to socialize and communicate properly. what right does he have to lambast kaiser when talking with people his own age is a fight for his life, and making friends is an epic struggle even now?
that's no reason to shy away from this conversation though. that would be cowardly, and how can he claim to want to understand his best friend and bring him happiness if he can't even handle explaining how he plans to get them there? does kaiser even want to get there...?
admittedly, it's not something riddle ever considered. after all, doesn't everyone want a their happily ever after? for him, simply surviving was utterly torturous, and riddle can't comprehend a life without chasing happiness and having something to look forward to. riddle doesn't mind if this scraggly stray wants to leave bloody corpses on his pillow, he doesn't even mind if he keeps secrets every now and then. as much as it hurts, riddle knew long ago that this matted tom probably wouldn't ever purr for him either-- he can accept that sad reality too.
but is he truly being a cruel tyrant for wanting this nasty little creature to consider him his home? doesn't he want the same thing? to have a home in riddle? ...riddle supposes it's not that simple since he himself is afraid of the answer, but still... ]
I don't want to *make* you do or say *anything*, I want you to want to do it yourself! That's all this is about, you don't have to be this cross with me! How can I be blamed for feeling the way I do when I don't know what I mean to you?! You just told me you never miss me, or wish you could see me when we're apart... Truly, what else am I supposed to think?
[ riddle is pissed off and overwhelmed and confused, so of course the next course of action is to hide behind a big potted plant in the hotel lobby while lilia checks them in so no one can see he's about to cry. happy spring break, everybody! ]
What you want is important to me too, Kaiser! Do I really make you feel like it isn't? I want to know if I do. I don't want to hurt you.
Tell me what you want. Tell me what will make you happy. I'll listen. I promise.
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[ truthfully, riddle feels out of his element, lecturing someone else on how to socialize and communicate properly. what right does he have to lambast kaiser when talking with people his own age is a fight for his life, and making friends is an epic struggle even now?
that's no reason to shy away from this conversation though. that would be cowardly, and how can he claim to want to understand his best friend and bring him happiness if he can't even handle explaining how he plans to get them there? does kaiser even want to get there...?
admittedly, it's not something riddle ever considered. after all, doesn't everyone want a their happily ever after? for him, simply surviving was utterly torturous, and riddle can't comprehend a life without chasing happiness and having something to look forward to. riddle doesn't mind if this scraggly stray wants to leave bloody corpses on his pillow, he doesn't even mind if he keeps secrets every now and then. as much as it hurts, riddle knew long ago that this matted tom probably wouldn't ever purr for him either-- he can accept that sad reality too.
but is he truly being a cruel tyrant for wanting this nasty little creature to consider him his home? doesn't he want the same thing? to have a home in riddle? ...riddle supposes it's not that simple since he himself is afraid of the answer, but still... ]
I don't want to *make* you do or say *anything*, I want you to want to do it yourself! That's all this is about, you don't have to be this cross with me! How can I be blamed for feeling the way I do when I don't know what I mean to you?! You just told me you never miss me, or wish you could see me when we're apart... Truly, what else am I supposed to think?
[ riddle is pissed off and overwhelmed and confused, so of course the next course of action is to hide behind a big potted plant in the hotel lobby while lilia checks them in so no one can see he's about to cry. happy spring break, everybody! ]
What you want is important to me too, Kaiser! Do I really make you feel like it isn't? I want to know if I do. I don't want to hurt you.
Tell me what you want. Tell me what will make you happy. I'll listen. I promise.