[ well but he respects the sentiment... he literally said out loud "i want to be something that's not possible in this world" without cringing at himself, so yeah, he vibes with being indescribable. ]
its probably because those old german fucks were depressed as hell alright heres another i think youll like verschlimmbessern
People think finding it always has positive connotations, but does it, really?
( when your reason for living is also kind of a curse? and very fleeting? you know... that's how sae sees it, at least. because he's a depressed japanese fuck. )
[ it's okay... kaiser is always open to depressionposting with sae. and nobody else, really, so maybe enjoy that privilege? ]
im just saying if youre stuck in a situation where your ideals can never match reality of course your reason for living is going to make you feel pretty fucking miserable? i dont know i can sympathize i guess
[ and empathize. but he does not want to go into details on that part... ]
i guess that kind of thought is sort of why i got my blue rose tattoo in the first place so...
[ which, for the record, was actually not primarily motivated by pleasing sae. it's that he got his own apartment and realized what a massive inconvenience he was being to himself... but he's going to present it otherwise because why not. ]
wow, a rare praise from sae itoshi! that makes it all worth it
[ ok but ness spoiled him and set him up to be a grown adult with no common sense skills so we should be applauding him for starting at a disadvantage! ]
didnt you say way back when you would reward me for that
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its probably because those old german fucks were depressed as hell
alright heres another i think youll like
verschlimmbessern
[ it also describes kaiser in canon rn <3 ]
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... ha.
I have a word for you, too, I guess.
「生き甲斐」
( and how they're both about to lose it — )
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thats pretty deep
the wikipedia page makes it sound like a completely positive thing though
doesnt feel that way to me
[ he too is a depressed german fuck, so. ]
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People think finding it always has positive connotations, but does it, really?
( when your reason for living is also kind of a curse? and very fleeting? you know... that's how sae sees it, at least. because he's a depressed japanese fuck. )
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[ damn sae kind of tanked the conversation here when they were vibing -_- just saying. ]
it all goes full circle to the weltschmerz if you think about it
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Yeah well
When you're a 80 year old stuck in a 18 year old body, I guess?
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im just saying if youre stuck in a situation where your ideals can never match reality
of course your reason for living is going to make you feel pretty fucking miserable?
i dont know
i can sympathize i guess
[ and empathize. but he does not want to go into details on that part... ]
i guess that kind of thought
is sort of why i got my blue rose tattoo in the first place
so...
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If your ideals don't match reality then
just force them to.
Isn't that what your blue rose tattoo is about, after all?
Making the impossible possible.
( he understands!! that doesn't mean their reason to get up in the morning is any less flimsy, though... )
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hah
i figured you would get it but you also can explain it much better than me, saechen
[ well now he's just complimenting sae for the sake of it, but yeah. ]
thats always been my philosophy with the longterm plan you know
[ kaiser is stopping the depressionposting now <3 ]
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Marrying me might as well be an impossible task, so I guess I see it.
Is that why you're so persistent?
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you can take staying over as a mini test run, perhaps
i even fixed that habit of mine you said you didnt like
not completely though.
[ but he put in an EFFORT! so. ]
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( there's a few??? )
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[ which, for the record, was actually not primarily motivated by pleasing sae. it's that he got his own apartment and realized what a massive inconvenience he was being to himself... but he's going to present it otherwise because why not. ]
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I'm so proud of you, Mika. About time.
( you're an adult............ this should be basic knowledge and habit....... )
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that makes it all worth it
[ ok but ness spoiled him and set him up to be a grown adult with no common sense skills so we should be applauding him for starting at a disadvantage! ]
didnt you say way back when you would reward me for that
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( even if it was sarcastic — )
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let me cash in that reward when youre here at some point
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Whatever you want once I'm there, I guess.
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you treat me so well idk if any other woman will ever compare
[ or any other in general really but yeah then that might be #gay again. ]
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Besides, you're showing up at 5 for me.
( not out of his own accord but. still. )
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guess its just meant to be
[ sae basically admitted they're on the same wavelength. teehee! ]
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