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[outplayed]

I came here to meet you!       ( text | action | etc. )
... I want you to get in the way of my life.

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[outplayed]

that is why im saying theres nothing to say
you already know
i already know
would be a boring shitty conversation to have

[menkoi]

most people talk about boring and shitty stuff.
it's "so normal"

i'd mind it less from you, i guess.

[outplayed]

... ok
then whats YOUR damage, you first

[menkoi]

[ what the hell is that supposed to mean delete delete delete ]

i'm going to need you to be more specific

since i'm not the one who brought angst into this conversation

[outplayed]

ok
what keeps you up at night

[menkoi]

huh?

[ that doesn't feel any more specific to answer... ]

idk i've never liked sleeping much
i could be doing things

getting better.

[outplayed]

so the pressure of getting better keeps you up at night? is what youre saying?

[menkoi]

i can't say it doesn't

no one wants to be a fuck up
but especially people who already know they aren't fuck ups

[outplayed]

you think?
id say its the people who have confidence that they arent fuck ups who tend to have the most stable performance, though

[menkoi]

it's not about stability. it's about getting there faster than the other guy.

[outplayed]

and being able to do that consistently is exactly what stability is, isnt it

[menkoi]

i don't like the word stable when the idea is to be constantly moving up, you know

the other guy is always getting better and so am i

[outplayed]

could be a difference in sports but i dont think thats all there is to success
its more about replicability of results
not every match can be your best, but every one has to be good enough

the on season is fucking long in my league, though, so i guess that changes how i think about it.

[menkoi]

maybe it is a sprinter thing

it's different when you're counting in milliseconds

[outplayed]

and you probably have fewer events every season, no?
ive got them dozens
so yeah, i guess it makes sense to measure success differently

[menkoi]

yeah. more exhibitions and time trials than competitions that mean anything, but when you get down to it

months of training and you have 400m to crush it or blow it
you know who's worth your attention and who the scrubs are immediately
beautiful 👌

[outplayed]

?
but then i think im still right
consistency and stability matter the most
everybody chokes at some point

you know they say the real bottleneck to going pro isnt physicality, its mentality

[menkoi]

i'm not gonna choke. simple as

what's your mentality then?

[outplayed]

[ .............. that if he doesn't produce results then his life is not literally but effectively over? so always play like there's a noose around his neck...?? ]

to stay hungry for it, always
thats about it, i suppose?

[menkoi]

[ really twinning the emotional damage from those early professional/extreme sports ambitions today~~ ]


yeah
i guess that's it.

so what happens if you a bust a knee tomorrow. still hungry?

[outplayed]

[ well then, his life would effectively be over! so! ]

that wouldnt happen
im so physically resilient that the team doctors always mention it in my charts
ive never even so much as been sick for more than 2 days in a row

[menkoi]

[ so it simply won't happen!! ever (everythingisfine) ]

you never told me that

have you ever tried parkour

[outplayed]

no but im familiar with it
are you about to try to entice me to try

[menkoi]

oh, it's not something to do casually

unless you're some kind of hyper-resilient freak

[outplayed]

uh-huh? keep going