It seems pointless to me, but if that's what you want to do then so be it. If I catch you slipping up, I'll be sure to correct you. There's no need to thank me.
[ riddle is too honest for his own good. that, in combination with the fact he has few friends and his dogged determination not to push them away with his horrible personality... well, kaiser will not be wanting for weird shit to mull over. except riddle doesn't see it as weird, and even if he did, his childhood friend may not know the details but he could certainly glean something wasn't right with the boy. ]
Hm... That's interesting. I
[ this feels...weird to say. pining, in a way. outwardly, riddle wants to come across as an unstoppable hbic. a lot of these words are not in the hbic bible! but kaiser is special. that's going to be his excuse for everything, isn't it? ]
wouldn't want to not know what happened to you either. I won't allow you to simply fade away quietly from my life this time. If you're going to die in a miserable way, then it ought to be in my arms.
[ the long gap at the bottom wasn't an html fuckup, riddle put it there on purpose to push his message up so it isn't the last thing they both see in their messaging window. even he can recognize that wanting a say in when and how someone else shuffles from their mortal coil is antithetical to who he's trying to be. ]
However, as I said, I would prefer you simply not die. That goes for all our outings, by the way.
[ while kaiser reads his mini essays, riddle goes back to studying so he can distract himself from thinking about All This. it almost feels like not enough time has passed for him to reorient himself, but also too much all at once. ]
I adore desserts, and I want to avoid being rude and overstaying at the restaurant, so plan for us to go to a café regardless. Be sure to impress me with your choice, of course. Do that, and this plan will go from 8/10 to a solid 10/10.
[ unfortunately for riddle, kaiser reads pretty slowly, so he already has to scroll up really far to digest all that text... fortunately for riddle, kaiser can more or less read the mood (and interpret all that blank space accurately), so he will simply leave it at: ]
im not going to die so dwbi
[ ... honestly, kaiser is too lucky (or "lucky") for that to happen to him too easily. he's born under some kind of star, because childhood friends dropping out of the metaphorical sky don't even strike him as some kind of experience he thinks should be unusual? doesn't that happen to everybody once or twice?
anyways, his willpower in not saying something obnoxious like "will you howld me in your awms anyways? 🥺" with cringe babyspeak and all should be lauded. ]
and neither are you, for that matter
anyways, alright, noted. thankfully for you, i dont have any food allergies, so i think it should be easy to not die in a café or a restaurant do you drink coffee in the evenings. i need to know so i can inspect these menus
[ someone who's spent most of their waking life under house arrest with nothing but a violent overbearing narcissist for a parent has predictably insufficient people skills. the fact kaiser can see through his attempts at dancing around the elephant in the room doesn't even occur to him. does it matter though? riddle has always been honest to a fault, even as a child. it's not like he would lie if asked any questions, especially not to his precious childhood friend, but it feels odd to know that he doesn't want questions asked. he doesn't want too many details unearthed, doesn't want the first good thing he ever had in his life to realize what so many of his peers already know.
(he also doesn't realize how selfish he's being in thinking this, but that's a whole other Thing riddle would rather fellate a cactus than deal with!!!)
none of that is going to come to light tonight, however, so riddle takes a deep breath and accepts kaiser's reassurance for what it is. also, if kaiser came at him with that uwu baby speak bullshit riddle would tell him to d*e so good call tbh ]
I should hope not, for both our sakes! I, for one, am far too busy to die just yet. Now that I know you're one to court danger, unfortunately I *will* be worrying about you. It sounds like it's just what you need.
[ someone to worry about his dumb jock ass, he means. ]
I prefer tea in the evenings, black tea if I intend to stay up late to study.
[ as far as kaiser, it's fine... they don't have to talk about it! they can simply drop hints of all the things they have been through during the interim years like haunting pieces of foreshadowing (hindshadowing?) before something inevitably happens that forces them to confront their issues. he will be doing his part to ensure this inevitability is as far off into the future as possible, and is counting on riddle to also do his part, because kaiser figures that the fact that riddle has said nothing about it means they are implicitly on the same page here!
also, damn, what if he wanted to be baby. he doesn't, but what if...? ]
yes but... no risk, no reward... also, if im going to take risks, then im going to do it while i can and its an actual choice i can make rather than when im backed into a corner and forced to do something, you know?
[ yes, it's an insane dichotomy that kaiser has in his head. he only has absolutely crazed dichotomies in his head, unfortunately. ]
should i worry about you, then? i can worry about whether youre studying too much and drag you out for dessert :/
[ anyways, that information is going into kaiser's totally normal notebooks that he uses to record and plan his social interactions. "note to self: find café with good tea and tea snacks"... something like that. ]
Wanting to make as many of your own choices as you can... I understand that desire all too well. As long as it's *your* decision, you know you will never regret that choice.
As someone who simply does what they want and refuses to let anyone stop them, in the spirit of fairness, while I cannot rightfully stop you from this thrill-seeking hobby of yours, I still intend to give you lectures and nag you every now and then.
[ not riddle enabling this bullshit???? *chappell roan voice* OHHHHH GODDDD WHAT HAVE U DONE,,, growing up, trying to exert his will or express himself often resulted in ass-beatings and failure, and riddle is not of a fan of getting his ass beat or failing. it certainly explains why he's so stubborn and petty-- being able to be one's authentic self is a privilege in his eyes (well, that and he's genuinely delusional and believes he's always right no matter what). if kaiser sees that gift for what it is, then who is he to stop him?
kaiser can have all the insane dichotomies he wants as long as riddle approves of them! god should have worked harder to keep them apart. ]
Don't play dirty. Would you worry because you care, or because it's a good excuse to shirk your own work, and you get the chance to nag me over something?
i think that youll make a great mother someday... that child will be a fortunate one... i really mean this btw im not teasing
[ that opportunity will not come by being a mother to kaiser, though. because kaiser will listen to all of that which riddle has told him, and he will remember it as well, but will he act upon it? hm... debatable at best!
at any rate, it would probably be objectively weird and awkward if riddle wanted mother kaiser, so better to not go down that route— ]
keep in mind that if you lecture me too much, it WILL have the opposite effect as desired, ok? im in my rebellious years so there is a limit to how much i can respect authority or common sense at any given point in time. you should praise me because at least i am self aware
[ yeah. ]
anyways, you can say lots of negative things about me which would be true, but a shirker i am not -_- nor a nag -_-
[ back at it with the nonstop "-_-"... somebody should tell him he can use other emotes, if he so chooses? that leaves only one option by process of elimination but kaiser will not! say it. ]
it IS a nice reason to eat sweets, though... im only allowed to eat whatever i want once a week so i should be rewarded for my self-discipline, no?
Oh goodness, no. While I appreciate the vote of confidence, I don't know the first thing about what being a good mother entails. It would be irresponsible of me to have a child while knowing I couldn't do them right, so I'm happy to stick with hedgehogs.
[ he is not touching that with a 10-foot pole. nope!!! if it's any consolation, riddle is just a fussy busybody in general; it's equal parts noblesse oblige and the need for control of everything around him. after all, if you want something done right, you need to do it yourself.
it's fine though...he's used to people being defiant shitrags, though not as much recently now that he's been taking conscious steps to mellow the fuck out. also, he doesn't exactly know what he wants or expects out of this rekindled friendship, but thankfully mothering kaiser is probably out the window because riddle is absolutely useless domestically. which is also fine!! there are other ways to take care of someone, not that riddle wants to take care of him...except maybe he does. admittedly, in his mind he still sees that scruffy and sullen little boy from all those years ago.
also, riddle has to wonder if he's??? being manipulated or not, because half of him thinks this diatribe about self awareness is bullshit, but also, he's had some Bad Experiences with his being an overbearing control-freak. what if kaiser comes to resent him if he lectures him too much? it's happened before with his peers... is it worth the risk? ]
Oh, bother... I don't know what to make of anything you just said. While self-awareness is good, the fact remains you should heed good advice whether you like it or not. That being said, I *have* been trying to be more lenient and cut back on my lecturing lately, so you have to tell me before it becomes unbearable. Alright?
[ that should be fine... man, this is turning into an emotional rollercoaster. kaiser isn't even "back" yet and riddle's already freaking out about losing him.
as if that wasn't bad enough, seeing those little -_-'s is starting to leave him pissed off and upset. granted, riddle is always pissed off about something, but this hits different. ]
I didn't mean it that way... I don't have a single negative thing to say about you. I never have. I'm happy to know you're diligent and hardworking.
[ riddle wants to tell him he's the best thing to ever happen to him and he would only nag him because he genuinely cares about him, he wants to give him all the praise he's due because hard work should always be celebrated...
but his crazy ass isn't unaware of the fact kaiser tactfully avoided mentioning whether he cared about him in turn, so!! riddle will just keep these embarrassing sentiments to himself, as well as make a million assumptions about where they stand and take them all as fact. very normal and cool behavior, not at all insufferable!
despite wanting to throw up and fucking die because of this, riddle refuses to dip from the conversation. the past always hurts to think about anyway, and it's not like kaiser being less affected by their relationship changes anything. ]
Is that so? I'm not well-educated on matters of physical fitness, and I can only imagine the rigorous expectations placed on a professional athlete. Well, hard work *should* be rewarded, and far be it from me to turn down an opportunity to eat sweets as well. So long as you give me prior notice, I'll happily accompany you on your designated sweets days.
[ it's tempting to insist that surely human children are hardier than hedgehogs? they have the spikes and all, but their little bellies seem awfully soft and vulnerable — but kaiser doesn't know enough to commit to arguing against that point. he's not really a contrarian, nor does he feel a strong need to always have something to say, so... sure.
well, actually— ]
youll have to let me get a look at those hedgehogs at some point so i can be the judge of that...
[ let him get a look and see how happy the hedgehogs make riddle... and if they do, let him get a slice of that, he needs some joy. not that he'll be willing to take it even if it's right in front of him, but he does need some joy. ]
? youre so serious not that its a bad thing, most people arent serious enough... how about this, instead of all of that, ill just try to not give you too many reasons to worry/lecture in the first place O—K—?
[ he pressed shift for that one to show that he cares. because he wouldn't ever say that in so many words! it... grosses him out! can't he just be a white boy who simply dgaf, instead of a white boy who has to use his words to communicate properly? ]
dont you think people who are always looking out for others are actually the ones most in need of being looked out for? [ who watches the watchmen, as they say... ] maybe i should be looking out for your diligent and hardworking a*s a little harder, actually check in with me every night at 22:00 and then go to sleep, for your information, i go to bed like a good boy because i like being asleep
I would like that very much. I love showing off my girl. I'm certain she would be delighted to meet you as well.
Normally I am not one to compromise, but your request is a fair one and you did well to lead with a compliment. Alright. I will do my best not to lecture you excessively so long as you try not to worry me (not *hide your dubious decisions from me* but actually try not to worry me).
[ unfortunately, riddle is pretty much a spoiled needy white girl deep down, not to mention bri'ish and therefore physically incapable of not being insufferable, so shift keys don't quite do it for him! they're not deep enough into the talking stage where riddle can't stop himself from screaming and crying until he hears the exact words he wants to hear, so for tonight...kaiser dodges a bullet.
also, he reads through the latest message, riddle is weirdly touched? because this does seem like a genuine and sweet and normal request to him?? as someone who is passionate about regulation, schedules, and policy, nightly check-ins feel...special. intimate. it's a display of dedication not many would be willing to not only make but actually maintain.
clearly kaiser is coming from a place of caring. look, he even censored the A-word and everything??? placing rules, following those rules... what greater sign of mutual trust and respect is there? ]
I don't think that, actually! If you are capable of looking out for others, then you should. That being said, I'm generally fine, really. You don't need to worry yourself over me, especially since I don't *do* anything worrisome to begin with.
But, since it is a reasonable request, I have no problem checking in with you nightly and going to sleep as instructed-- But, only if you respond in turn. That way, your words will be the first ones I read when I wake up. If you're concerned you'll be asleep by 2200, I can send my message at 2100, then go to bed at 2200 in order to give you time to respond. Don't worry, I won't look at my phone until I wake up. Fair is fair, after all.
most of my risk taking behavior is, unfortunately, highly publicized and also greatly exaggerated. have a little faith in the process, i have to stay alive and well to meet your hedgehog. also im very good at calculating the risks, im still healthy and in one piece right now, arent i?
[ the risks he takes are calculated and for some reason he's good at math... 💙
also, crazy combo. when a controlling deutsch boy meets a needy bri'ish girl... he's putting their daily bedtime checkin in his g**gle calendar now as a recurring task because this is a completely normal thing for people to do and neither of them should worry about it! ]
not doing anything worrisome is also worrisome in its own way, dont you think? nows the time to be young and (modestly) reckless so we can get it out of our systems and grow up into proper young adults who dont have intrusive thoughts about all the things we shouldve done when we were teenagers surely theres at least one mildly-to-moderately worrisome thing that intrigues you 🥺
[ reveal thy psyche! this is absolutely, definitely, and certainly a textbook case of positive peer pressure. kaiser is on the verge of pulling a, "have i ever steered you wrong?" as if he's even had much of an opportunity to do any steering as of yet... ]
hmm... the original time works for me, i think i sleep for 7 hours every night and get up at 5:30... what, shall i send you a good morning text too?
You make compelling arguments, and I know you must be strong given your success in soccer. I suppose I just can't help worrying about you no matter what. Wouldn't it be horrific if something were to happen to you right after we reunited? I would be beside myself.
[ they've barely started talking and kaiser is already making him crazy. not the 'haha' kind of crazy either, more like the weird semi-obsessed kind of crazy. great! riddle thinks nothing of the fact he's a bad bitch who don't need a mad, and yet he's literally synchronizing his sleep schedule to one regardless of what asinine mental gymnastics he does to justify it. codependency only happens to other people, not him, NOPE. ]
I suppose you make a good point... I know you told me not to worry about the future, but after everything you just said, I can't help but once again remember what awaits me.
I'll certainly regret it if I'm unable to experience as much as I can while I'm able to. Even having wonderful memories to look back on will be better than nothing.
Does getting drunk count as mildly-to-moderately worrisome? That's the only thing that comes to mind...
[ kaiser isn't much older than he is so it's not like he can do anything about this curiosity of his, though! riddle just wanted to be honest with his friend, who is a good and honest boy who has never broken a law or done a crime!!
he thinks this as he, too, begins adding their times to his phone alarms and calendar. ]
You have a very balanced sleep schedule. I must say, I'm impressed. I would love a good morning text! I typically start my day at 0600 to feed my hedgehog. Shall I reply to you at that time?
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[ riddle is too honest for his own good. that, in combination with the fact he has few friends and his dogged determination not to push them away with his horrible personality... well, kaiser will not be wanting for weird shit to mull over. except riddle doesn't see it as weird, and even if he did, his childhood friend may not know the details but he could certainly glean something wasn't right with the boy. ]
Hm... That's interesting. I
[ this feels...weird to say. pining, in a way. outwardly, riddle wants to come across as an unstoppable hbic. a lot of these words are not in the hbic bible! but kaiser is special. that's going to be his excuse for everything, isn't it? ]
wouldn't want to not know what happened to you either. I won't allow you to simply fade away quietly from my life this time. If you're going to die in a miserable way, then it ought to be in my arms.
[ the long gap at the bottom wasn't an html fuckup, riddle put it there on purpose to push his message up so it isn't the last thing they both see in their messaging window. even he can recognize that wanting a say in when and how someone else shuffles from their mortal coil is antithetical to who he's trying to be. ]
However, as I said, I would prefer you simply not die. That goes for all our outings, by the way.
[ while kaiser reads his mini essays, riddle goes back to studying so he can distract himself from thinking about All This. it almost feels like not enough time has passed for him to reorient himself, but also too much all at once. ]
I adore desserts, and I want to avoid being rude and overstaying at the restaurant, so plan for us to go to a café regardless. Be sure to impress me with your choice, of course. Do that, and this plan will go from 8/10 to a solid 10/10.
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im not going to die so dwbi
[ ... honestly, kaiser is too lucky (or "lucky") for that to happen to him too easily. he's born under some kind of star, because childhood friends dropping out of the metaphorical sky don't even strike him as some kind of experience he thinks should be unusual? doesn't that happen to everybody once or twice?
anyways, his willpower in not saying something obnoxious like "will you howld me in your awms anyways? 🥺" with cringe babyspeak and all should be lauded. ]
and neither are you, for that matter
anyways, alright, noted. thankfully for you, i dont have any food allergies, so i think it should be easy to not die in a café or a restaurant
do you drink coffee in the evenings. i need to know so i can inspect these menus
[ he's a planner (neurotic). ]
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(he also doesn't realize how selfish he's being in thinking this, but that's a whole other Thing riddle would rather fellate a cactus than deal with!!!)
none of that is going to come to light tonight, however, so riddle takes a deep breath and accepts kaiser's reassurance for what it is. also, if kaiser came at him with that uwu baby speak bullshit riddle would tell him to d*e so good call tbh ]
I should hope not, for both our sakes! I, for one, am far too busy to die just yet. Now that I know you're one to court danger, unfortunately I *will* be worrying about you. It sounds like it's just what you need.
[ someone to worry about his dumb jock ass, he means. ]
I prefer tea in the evenings, black tea if I intend to stay up late to study.
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also, damn, what if he wanted to be baby. he doesn't, but what if...? ]
yes but... no risk, no reward... also, if im going to take risks, then im going to do it while i can and its an actual choice i can make rather than when im backed into a corner and forced to do something, you know?
[ yes, it's an insane dichotomy that kaiser has in his head. he only has absolutely crazed dichotomies in his head, unfortunately. ]
should i worry about you, then?
i can worry about whether youre studying too much and drag you out for dessert :/
[ anyways, that information is going into kaiser's totally normal notebooks that he uses to record and plan his social interactions. "note to self: find café with good tea and tea snacks"... something like that. ]
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Wanting to make as many of your own choices as you can... I understand that desire all too well. As long as it's *your* decision, you know you will never regret that choice.
As someone who simply does what they want and refuses to let anyone stop them, in the spirit of fairness, while I cannot rightfully stop you from this thrill-seeking hobby of yours, I still intend to give you lectures and nag you every now and then.
[ not riddle enabling this bullshit???? *chappell roan voice* OHHHHH GODDDD WHAT HAVE U DONE,,, growing up, trying to exert his will or express himself often resulted in ass-beatings and failure, and riddle is not of a fan of getting his ass beat or failing. it certainly explains why he's so stubborn and petty-- being able to be one's authentic self is a privilege in his eyes (well, that and he's genuinely delusional and believes he's always right no matter what). if kaiser sees that gift for what it is, then who is he to stop him?
kaiser can have all the insane dichotomies he wants as long as riddle approves of them! god should have worked harder to keep them apart. ]
Don't play dirty. Would you worry because you care, or because it's a good excuse to shirk your own work, and you get the chance to nag me over something?
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[ that opportunity will not come by being a mother to kaiser, though. because kaiser will listen to all of that which riddle has told him, and he will remember it as well, but will he act upon it? hm... debatable at best!
at any rate, it would probably be objectively weird and awkward if riddle wanted mother kaiser, so better to not go down that route— ]
keep in mind that if you lecture me too much, it WILL have the opposite effect as desired, ok? im in my rebellious years so there is a limit to how much i can respect authority or common sense at any given point in time. you should praise me because at least i am self aware
[ yeah. ]
anyways, you can say lots of negative things about me which would be true, but a shirker i am not -_- nor a nag -_-
[ back at it with the nonstop "-_-"... somebody should tell him he can use other emotes, if he so chooses? that leaves only one option by process of elimination but kaiser will not! say it. ]
it IS a nice reason to eat sweets, though... im only allowed to eat whatever i want once a week so i should be rewarded for my self-discipline, no?
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[ he is not touching that with a 10-foot pole. nope!!! if it's any consolation, riddle is just a fussy busybody in general; it's equal parts noblesse oblige and the need for control of everything around him. after all, if you want something done right, you need to do it yourself.
it's fine though...he's used to people being defiant shitrags, though not as much recently now that he's been taking conscious steps to mellow the fuck out. also, he doesn't exactly know what he wants or expects out of this rekindled friendship, but thankfully mothering kaiser is probably out the window because riddle is absolutely useless domestically. which is also fine!! there are other ways to take care of someone, not that riddle wants to take care of him...except maybe he does. admittedly, in his mind he still sees that scruffy and sullen little boy from all those years ago.
also, riddle has to wonder if he's??? being manipulated or not, because half of him thinks this diatribe about self awareness is bullshit, but also, he's had some Bad Experiences with his being an overbearing control-freak. what if kaiser comes to resent him if he lectures him too much? it's happened before with his peers... is it worth the risk? ]
Oh, bother... I don't know what to make of anything you just said. While self-awareness is good, the fact remains you should heed good advice whether you like it or not. That being said, I *have* been trying to be more lenient and cut back on my lecturing lately, so you have to tell me before it becomes unbearable. Alright?
[ that should be fine... man, this is turning into an emotional rollercoaster. kaiser isn't even "back" yet and riddle's already freaking out about losing him.
as if that wasn't bad enough, seeing those little -_-'s is starting to leave him pissed off and upset. granted, riddle is always pissed off about something, but this hits different. ]
I didn't mean it that way... I don't have a single negative thing to say about you. I never have. I'm happy to know you're diligent and hardworking.
[ riddle wants to tell him he's the best thing to ever happen to him and he would only nag him because he genuinely cares about him, he wants to give him all the praise he's due because hard work should always be celebrated...
but his crazy ass isn't unaware of the fact kaiser tactfully avoided mentioning whether he cared about him in turn, so!! riddle will just keep these embarrassing sentiments to himself, as well as make a million assumptions about where they stand and take them all as fact. very normal and cool behavior, not at all insufferable!
despite wanting to throw up and fucking die because of this, riddle refuses to dip from the conversation. the past always hurts to think about anyway, and it's not like kaiser being less affected by their relationship changes anything. ]
Is that so? I'm not well-educated on matters of physical fitness, and I can only imagine the rigorous expectations placed on a professional athlete. Well, hard work *should* be rewarded, and far be it from me to turn down an opportunity to eat sweets as well. So long as you give me prior notice, I'll happily accompany you on your designated sweets days.
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well, actually— ]
youll have to let me get a look at those hedgehogs at some point so i can be the judge of that...
[ let him get a look and see how happy the hedgehogs make riddle... and if they do, let him get a slice of that, he needs some joy. not that he'll be willing to take it even if it's right in front of him, but he does need some joy. ]
?
youre so serious
not that its a bad thing, most people arent serious enough...
how about this, instead of all of that, ill just try to not give you too many reasons to worry/lecture in the first place
O—K—?
[ he pressed shift for that one to show that he cares. because he wouldn't ever say that in so many words! it... grosses him out! can't he just be a white boy who simply dgaf, instead of a white boy who has to use his words to communicate properly? ]
dont you think people who are always looking out for others are actually the ones most in need of being looked out for? [ who watches the watchmen, as they say... ]
maybe i should be looking out for your diligent and hardworking a*s a little harder, actually
check in with me every night at 22:00 and then go to sleep, for your information, i go to bed like a good boy because i like being asleep
[ a very normal request!!! ]
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Normally I am not one to compromise, but your request is a fair one and you did well to lead with a compliment. Alright. I will do my best not to lecture you excessively so long as you try not to worry me (not *hide your dubious decisions from me* but actually try not to worry me).
[ unfortunately, riddle is pretty much a spoiled needy white girl deep down, not to mention bri'ish and therefore physically incapable of not being insufferable, so shift keys don't quite do it for him! they're not deep enough into the talking stage where riddle can't stop himself from screaming and crying until he hears the exact words he wants to hear, so for tonight...kaiser dodges a bullet.
also, he reads through the latest message, riddle is weirdly touched? because this does seem like a genuine and sweet and normal request to him?? as someone who is passionate about regulation, schedules, and policy, nightly check-ins feel...special. intimate. it's a display of dedication not many would be willing to not only make but actually maintain.
clearly kaiser is coming from a place of caring. look, he even censored the A-word and everything??? placing rules, following those rules... what greater sign of mutual trust and respect is there? ]
I don't think that, actually! If you are capable of looking out for others, then you should. That being said, I'm generally fine, really. You don't need to worry yourself over me, especially since I don't *do* anything worrisome to begin with.
But, since it is a reasonable request, I have no problem checking in with you nightly and going to sleep as instructed-- But, only if you respond in turn. That way, your words will be the first ones I read when I wake up. If you're concerned you'll be asleep by 2200, I can send my message at 2100, then go to bed at 2200 in order to give you time to respond. Don't worry, I won't look at my phone until I wake up. Fair is fair, after all.
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have a little faith in the process, i have to stay alive and well to meet your hedgehog. also im very good at calculating the risks, im still healthy and in one piece right now, arent i?
[ the risks he takes are calculated and for some reason he's good at math... 💙
also, crazy combo. when a controlling deutsch boy meets a needy bri'ish girl... he's putting their daily bedtime checkin in his g**gle calendar now as a recurring task because this is a completely normal thing for people to do and neither of them should worry about it! ]
not doing anything worrisome is also worrisome in its own way, dont you think?
nows the time to be young and (modestly) reckless so we can get it out of our systems and grow up into proper young adults who dont have intrusive thoughts about all the things we shouldve done when we were teenagers
surely theres at least one mildly-to-moderately worrisome thing that intrigues you 🥺
[ reveal thy psyche! this is absolutely, definitely, and certainly a textbook case of positive peer pressure. kaiser is on the verge of pulling a, "have i ever steered you wrong?" as if he's even had much of an opportunity to do any steering as of yet... ]
hmm... the original time works for me, i think
i sleep for 7 hours every night and get up at 5:30... what, shall i send you a good morning text too?
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[ they've barely started talking and kaiser is already making him crazy. not the 'haha' kind of crazy either, more like the weird semi-obsessed kind of crazy. great! riddle thinks nothing of the fact he's a bad bitch who don't need a mad, and yet he's literally synchronizing his sleep schedule to one regardless of what asinine mental gymnastics he does to justify it. codependency only happens to other people, not him, NOPE. ]
I suppose you make a good point... I know you told me not to worry about the future, but after everything you just said, I can't help but once again remember what awaits me.
I'll certainly regret it if I'm unable to experience as much as I can while I'm able to. Even having wonderful memories to look back on will be better than nothing.
Does getting drunk count as mildly-to-moderately worrisome? That's the only thing that comes to mind...
[ kaiser isn't much older than he is so it's not like he can do anything about this curiosity of his, though! riddle just wanted to be honest with his friend, who is a good and honest boy who has never broken a law or done a crime!!
he thinks this as he, too, begins adding their times to his phone alarms and calendar. ]
You have a very balanced sleep schedule. I must say, I'm impressed. I would love a good morning text! I typically start my day at 0600 to feed my hedgehog. Shall I reply to you at that time?