i think that youre concerned that i will be able to accurately profile everybody in your little black book with enough information and youre right to worry about that so i will let it go
[ praise his magnanimous heart. ]
i dont think im having delusions, though, i think my inferences are quite logical you probably think of it as doing physical maintenance or something along those lines
[ but when will kaiser use that imaginative brain of his to put together that noa is leaving space to add him into the book one day? well, all things in time. ]
You are right that it's about maintenance. I have needs to fulfill, and created an outlet to achieve that. Everyone I've been with understands it'll never be more than a physical relationship.
[ --for the most part. he's cut a few people off who forgot who he is and confessed their heartfelt love to him, thinking they could change him or he could love them in an inherently special way. never regret nor remorse when it came to that, but disappointment that the social contract established in the dark was broken in the futile attempt to drag it into the light. ]
[ kaiser looking at leonardo luna and sae itoshi interact: lmao. get groomed, idiot kaiser looking at himself in the mirror: . ]
there are those who have enough sense to weigh the pros and cons and choose to not delude themselves into thinking they could be the exception, and those who do not, is it? how very much like you if anything the only thing that surprises me about all of this is the idea that you have multiple pages to fill up in your book
[ at least noa wants his boywife to be unhinged and murderous instead of depressed and cynical??? ]
There are those who start as the former but then shift into the latter. Hopeless sentimentality. Does it really surprise you though? It seems sensible to leave my options open. Or do you think it's because word could spread with too many people?
[ he had that concern when he was younger, that it could be a stain on a reputation he didn't care about but was still important to maintain. but he's made clear to anyone he's been with that there would be no second chances if his privacy was violated. ]
[ true, free-range and organically deranged boywives are healthier and have more longevity! ]
no, because im shocked youve met enough people who meet all those criteria, whose personality does not turn you off, are decent lays, and are willing to repeat this act of self harm over time that youve got regular hookups across europe, like thats fucking crazy where are you finding these insane people
[ kaiser says this like he doesn't himself enjoy grievous mental self-harm. ]
[ haaah... well, he's not wrong about any of those things. though, unfortunately, personality is nowhere as much of a concern as is physicality. he's endured a few people he can't stand just because the sex was good. ]
Don't call my partners insane or imply they self-harm just because they sleep with me. I've had a decade to build up my connections. Also, I'm me.
[ he's "noel noa the world's best striker" or whatever. though most of his consistent partners have known him years before he was bequeathed that title. ]
oh my, hes getting worked up over the good mental bearing of his hook-ups now... very interesting...
[ "what do we make of this, chat?" except this phrasing is probably just going to make noa think kaiser is hallucinating or something. ]
anybody willing to put up with all that just to say to themselves and nobody else "i fucked the worlds best" is still insane, btw, just in a different way
[ listen, haze him all you want but leave his fwbs out of it. they fulfill his needs and are good for it. ]
All of what? My restrictions? Me, in general? Well, either way, there might be some truth to that. But everyone gets what they want out of the arrangement. I don't mind being used if I still get my way.
[ noa has, for a long time, seen himself both as an individual and as a piece he maneuvers from a birds eye view. he is detached even from his own sense of self when he wills it to be so. ]
[ where's this energy when kaiser is getting trash talked by chr*s pr*nce in front of everybody? 🙄 ]
the whole package but yes, you in general anybody who knows you well enough should know that you dont do anything without an intention to win well, maybe you think its fine since it could be a win-win situation but whoever accepts that situation on the other end is clearly giving something up mentally or theyre too clueless to get it
[ kaiser does not know about logical fallacies, but he knows bullshit when he hears it!! sometimes. ]
i said what i said, either they dont actually understand you as well as they think they do, or they dont understand the real situation isnt the fact that people get carried away and think they might be your exception proof enough of that?
is it not obvious? those people think youre treating them as an equal but you dont think of them like that at all and you dont expect anything more out of any of them you dont want to be challenged by any of them, you want to make convenient use of them i mean, you wouldnt give a shit if i said any particular bastard münchen player is insane or has self-harming tendencies, would you? yet in this case, you jumped in like i insulted your precious adorable little show puppies
therefore: they dont understand the real situation. are you playing dumb with me?
[ "is it not obvious" he says before sending the most insane psychoanalysis 101 noa has ever read and also it's about his sex life?????? what does he even say to this? hit him with the michael jordan and call it a day? he's stunned, actually rendered speechless.
no, you know what?
✔️READ
he's putting the phone down and taking a shower. ]
[ kaiser is not right! he is also not entirely wrong? but! he does not want to elaborate on what parts are right and wrong. he also does not want to talk about his partners or what he does and doesn't do with them.
he picks his phone up again after half an hour or so. they need to invent a way for him to explode people with his mind. he would only use this power responsibly. ]
I'm back. I'm not going to comment on anything you wrote. You can take that as you will. Is there anything else you need from me before I go to sleep?
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I'm not giving you anymore fodder than I already have. Keep your delusions to yourself.
[ he is not kissing and telling!! take the headcanons to the rpf girls on footballtwt ]
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[ praise his magnanimous heart. ]
i dont think im having delusions, though, i think my inferences are quite logical
you probably think of it as doing physical maintenance or something along those lines
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You are right that it's about maintenance.
I have needs to fulfill, and created an outlet to achieve that. Everyone I've been with understands it'll never be more than a physical relationship.
[ --for the most part. he's cut a few people off who forgot who he is and confessed their heartfelt love to him, thinking they could change him or he could love them in an inherently special way. never regret nor remorse when it came to that, but disappointment that the social contract established in the dark was broken in the futile attempt to drag it into the light. ]
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kaiser looking at himself in the mirror: . ]
there are those who have enough sense to weigh the pros and cons and choose to not delude themselves into thinking they could be the exception, and those who do not, is it?
how very much like you
if anything the only thing that surprises me about all of this is the idea that you have multiple pages to fill up in your book
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There are those who start as the former but then shift into the latter. Hopeless sentimentality.
Does it really surprise you though? It seems sensible to leave my options open.
Or do you think it's because word could spread with too many people?
[ he had that concern when he was younger, that it could be a stain on a reputation he didn't care about but was still important to maintain. but he's made clear to anyone he's been with that there would be no second chances if his privacy was violated. ]
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no, because im shocked youve met enough people who meet all those criteria, whose personality does not turn you off, are decent lays, and are willing to repeat this act of self harm over time that youve got regular hookups across europe, like thats fucking crazy
where are you finding these insane people
[ kaiser says this like he doesn't himself enjoy grievous mental self-harm. ]
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Don't call my partners insane or imply they self-harm just because they sleep with me.
I've had a decade to build up my connections.
Also, I'm me.
[ he's "noel noa the world's best striker" or whatever. though most of his consistent partners have known him years before he was bequeathed that title. ]
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[ "what do we make of this, chat?" except this phrasing is probably just going to make noa think kaiser is hallucinating or something. ]
anybody willing to put up with all that just to say to themselves and nobody else "i fucked the worlds best" is still insane, btw, just in a different way
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All of what? My restrictions? Me, in general?
Well, either way, there might be some truth to that. But everyone gets what they want out of the arrangement. I don't mind being used if I still get my way.
[ noa has, for a long time, seen himself both as an individual and as a piece he maneuvers from a birds eye view. he is detached even from his own sense of self when he wills it to be so. ]
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the whole package but yes, you in general
anybody who knows you well enough should know that you dont do anything without an intention to win
well, maybe you think its fine since it could be a win-win situation but whoever accepts that situation on the other end is clearly giving something up mentally or theyre too clueless to get it
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You think I destroy my partner's mental stability for my own gain or that they were already unstable to start with. You're overthinking this.
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[ kaiser does not know about logical fallacies, but he knows bullshit when he hears it!! sometimes. ]
i said what i said, either they dont actually understand you as well as they think they do, or they dont understand the real situation
isnt the fact that people get carried away and think they might be your exception proof enough of that?
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But ok, I'll humor this: what is the 'real situation' they aren't understanding in your mind?
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those people think youre treating them as an equal but you dont think of them like that at all and you dont expect anything more out of any of them
you dont want to be challenged by any of them, you want to make convenient use of them
i mean, you wouldnt give a shit if i said any particular bastard münchen player is insane or has self-harming tendencies, would you? yet in this case, you jumped in like i insulted your precious adorable little show puppies
therefore: they dont understand the real situation. are you playing dumb with me?
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no, you know what?
✔️READ
he's putting the phone down and taking a shower. ]
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he picks his phone up again after half an hour or so. they need to invent a way for him to explode people with his mind. he would only use this power responsibly. ]
I'm back.
I'm not going to comment on anything you wrote. You can take that as you will.
Is there anything else you need from me before I go to sleep?
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[ and even if he's not, rendering noel noa unable to deal with his shit for half an hour is a major win for him. tehe! ]
no, i shall sleep well now that i know im right
good💙 night💙