I have my thoughts. But I'm more interested in what you do, not what I think you'll do. Telling you my hypothesis could taint the experiment that is "you".
[ noa not only accepted he was going to be noticed, evaluated and appraised by the world when he began playing football - he welcomed it. to present his theories to the world and thus be judged by them. they deemed him one of the greatest striker's of the current generation, the best by quantitative and at times qualitative measurement. how did he ascend so high? part of it was through observation, of peers and rivals alike. if kaiser were to complain about the attention he's received, then noa wouldn't be able to counter the allegations.
for all the things he has noticed, he also can't conclude where things will go. humans are all experiments in progress and hypotheticals can be drawn, but the conclusion? it might take another decade of observation with how early kaiser is still in his career. maybe even two? noa doesn't think kaiser is going to crash out of the profession, or at least not since he helped ("tortured" as kaiser put it) course correct him through the NEL. ]
I'll let you know my thoughts after you retire. You can wait another decade or so, right?
[ at the end of the day, kaiser might call it torture... but he prefers being tortured to having a normal, comfortable existence. for whatever that implies about a lot of things... ]
fair enough. then write down your thoughts right now so theres a record and your recollections wont be distorted with the passage of time here, ill even do the same for you so its equal
[ not that kaiser's thoughts on noa's career trajectory are very interesting, and noa can probably predict them, more or less. more notable is the fact that kaiser has elected to not tell noa to not hedge — because he assumes this doesn't need to be said. people aiming for the best in the world have to be bold enough to stick by what they think is right. ]
also, after i retire?? how about after YOU retire...
No. If I were to give it to you prematurely, you can take that as a sign that I think you have no more room for evolution and growth. I'll write down my thoughts now as you suggested. Think of it as a time capsule.
[ or would he? maybe... it doesn't hurt to protest it, though. ]
then, do an interim report too one that youll permit me to see when im your age and give me some thoughts on how i want to spend the sunset of my career
Wouldn't it be more satisfying to read the notes if you had to go through a series of challenges to unearth them? I can't make things easy for you. Not even in death.
[ (jk he is just going to leave the notes in his safe, he's not invested enough to make it more complicated than that.) ]
[ he's been preparing his equivalent of the cool girl monologue for half his life! ]
i know that i dont think id have to ruin your living room, though, maybe just push a few pots out of their usual place to catch your attention i shouldnt give any more away, though, itll ruin the surprise
im not going to just plagiarize amy beat for beat, that would be so rude and disrespectful of me
[ don't question why he talks about amy like she's his actual friend. ]
ill put my own spin on things besides, i promised you all that time ago an intriguing murder-suicide, didnt i? the pieces are starting to come together now...
[ kaiser only wishes that he could kin patrick bateman, but he lacks the prerequisite psychopathy and he sometimes wishes he doesn't. if anything, he thinks he probably has the opposite of whatever his favorite psycho does, because there is an idea of a patrick bateman, but kaiser thinks of himself as an object. alas...
amy, on the other hand...... ]
if i can wait until i retire before i get what i want from you, then you can wait until i retire for me to make good on all my promises thats just fair, isnt it? im not rushing because im not worried about it.
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But I'm more interested in what you do, not what I think you'll do.
Telling you my hypothesis could taint the experiment that is "you".
[ noa not only accepted he was going to be noticed, evaluated and appraised by the world when he began playing football - he welcomed it. to present his theories to the world and thus be judged by them. they deemed him one of the greatest striker's of the current generation, the best by quantitative and at times qualitative measurement. how did he ascend so high? part of it was through observation, of peers and rivals alike. if kaiser were to complain about the attention he's received, then noa wouldn't be able to counter the allegations.
for all the things he has noticed, he also can't conclude where things will go. humans are all experiments in progress and hypotheticals can be drawn, but the conclusion? it might take another decade of observation with how early kaiser is still in his career. maybe even two? noa doesn't think kaiser is going to crash out of the profession, or at least not since he helped ("tortured" as kaiser put it) course correct him through the NEL. ]
I'll let you know my thoughts after you retire.
You can wait another decade or so, right?
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fair enough.
then write down your thoughts right now so theres a record and your recollections wont be distorted with the passage of time
here, ill even do the same for you so its equal
[ not that kaiser's thoughts on noa's career trajectory are very interesting, and noa can probably predict them, more or less. more notable is the fact that kaiser has elected to not tell noa to not hedge — because he assumes this doesn't need to be said. people aiming for the best in the world have to be bold enough to stick by what they think is right. ]
also, after i retire?? how about after YOU retire...
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If I were to give it to you prematurely, you can take that as a sign that I think you have no more room for evolution and growth.
I'll write down my thoughts now as you suggested. Think of it as a time capsule.
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[ or would he? maybe... it doesn't hurt to protest it, though. ]
then, do an interim report too
one that youll permit me to see when im your age and give me some thoughts on how i want to spend the sunset of my career
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I don't want to.
[ 😑 ]
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try to not die before i retire, then, or if you do, be sure to keep those notes in a place id think to look
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I can't make things easy for you. Not even in death.
[ (jk he is just going to leave the notes in his safe, he's not invested enough to make it more complicated than that.) ]
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[ is this a generational gap or just kaiser's deranged imagination picturing him as a psychopath?? ]
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i guess that leaves things open for me to gone girl you, then
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Ok.
Just don't touch my plants when you ruin the living room for the setup.
They are important to me.
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i know that
i dont think id have to ruin your living room, though, maybe just push a few pots out of their usual place to catch your attention
i shouldnt give any more away, though, itll ruin the surprise
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What surprise?
I've read the book and seen the movie. I know the general idea of the plotline.
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[ don't question why he talks about amy like she's his actual friend. ]
ill put my own spin on things
besides, i promised you all that time ago an intriguing murder-suicide, didnt i? the pieces are starting to come together now...
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[ please do not kin amy, or patrick bateman, or anyone else for that matter. ]
Anyway yes, you did promise that.
However you promise many things and then you don't deliver, so I'm skeptical.
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amy, on the other hand...... ]
if i can wait until i retire before i get what i want from you, then you can wait until i retire for me to make good on all my promises
thats just fair, isnt it?
im not rushing because im not worried about it.
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This is another flaw of yours.
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[ kaiser knows his own personality well enough... ]
accept this flaw of mine because the alternative is worse, actually
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my 2,000 mental disorders are roughly in equilibrium right now, lets not introduce another one in case it makes the pile collapse