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[outplayed]

I came here to meet you!       ( text | action | etc. )
... I want you to get in the way of my life.

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[sublimed]

Calmed down a little.
I got distracted with your stomach issues.

( aka he got his revenge so he's feeling better— )

[outplayed]

wow schadenfreude much...
try to not choke to death in your sleep, ok?
at least wait til youre here before you do that

[sublimed]

Don't use big words, it's weird when you do it.

Sure.
I'd hate for you to get jealous I got to die by choking.

[outplayed]

its literally german idk what else to say on the matter
thats just how german is

when you get here we can have a nice long talk about our torschlusspanik and weltschmerz and possibly even our frühjahrsmüdigkeit (look them up)
if anything you should learn german because this language is simply superior for having an extended mental breakdown in

[ he's kidding (he's not kidding) he's kidding!! (he's not kidding.) ]

[sublimed]

None of these sound like real words.
Especially the last one... ?

( but fine, let him look up all these Depression terms. )

I learned some today, I guess.
Not that I'd ever remember any of this.

[outplayed]

ok, ok
ill remember for you and you let me know if you need a specific phrase for your specific depression

[sublimed]

Not even German has the right word for me.

( EDGY )

[outplayed]

[ he does not send "LMAO" but he did lmao in his heart. ]

so true
i meant that sincerely btw
but i think maybe it can get close
zugzwang? fernweh?

[sublimed]

( he should have sent it tbh )

These still don't sound like real words, by the way.
But... I do like them, actually.
After googling.

German's kinda poetic, huh?

[outplayed]

[ well but he respects the sentiment... he literally said out loud "i want to be something that's not possible in this world" without cringing at himself, so yeah, he vibes with being indescribable. ]

its probably because those old german fucks were depressed as hell
alright heres another i think youll like
verschlimmbessern

[ it also describes kaiser in canon rn <3 ]

[sublimed]

( i hate that they're not only both cringe but also tolerate and support each other's cringe... truly tragic. )

... ha.
I have a word for you, too, I guess.
「生き甲斐」

( and how they're both about to lose it — )

[outplayed]

ohh
thats pretty deep

the wikipedia page makes it sound like a completely positive thing though
doesnt feel that way to me

[ he too is a depressed german fuck, so. ]

[sublimed]

It's up to interpretation, I think.

People think finding it always has positive connotations, but does it, really?

( when your reason for living is also kind of a curse? and very fleeting? you know... that's how sae sees it, at least. because he's a depressed japanese fuck. )

[outplayed]

depends on the reason one finds, i guess

[ damn sae kind of tanked the conversation here when they were vibing -_- just saying. ]

it all goes full circle to the weltschmerz if you think about it

[sublimed]

( well exCUUUUSE HIM??? he thought they were depressionposting not vibing... damnnnn... )

Yeah well
When you're a 80 year old stuck in a 18 year old body, I guess?

[outplayed]

[ it's okay... kaiser is always open to depressionposting with sae. and nobody else, really, so maybe enjoy that privilege? ]

im just saying if youre stuck in a situation where your ideals can never match reality
of course your reason for living is going to make you feel pretty fucking miserable?
i dont know
i can sympathize i guess

[ and empathize. but he does not want to go into details on that part... ]

i guess that kind of thought
is sort of why i got my blue rose tattoo in the first place
so...

[sublimed]

( hm! )

If your ideals don't match reality then
just force them to.
Isn't that what your blue rose tattoo is about, after all?
Making the impossible possible.

( he understands!! that doesn't mean their reason to get up in the morning is any less flimsy, though... )

[outplayed]

yeah, youre right about that
hah
i figured you would get it but you also can explain it much better than me, saechen

[ well now he's just complimenting sae for the sake of it, but yeah. ]

thats always been my philosophy with the longterm plan you know

[ kaiser is stopping the depressionposting now <3 ]

[sublimed]

( wow. right back to marriageposting. )

Marrying me might as well be an impossible task, so I guess I see it.
Is that why you're so persistent?

[outplayed]

impossible... for now, perhaps [ teehee ]
you can take staying over as a mini test run, perhaps

i even fixed that habit of mine you said you didnt like
not completely though.

[ but he put in an EFFORT! so. ]

[sublimed]

... which habit?

( there's a few??? )

[outplayed]

not putting things back where they came from

[ which, for the record, was actually not primarily motivated by pleasing sae. it's that he got his own apartment and realized what a massive inconvenience he was being to himself... but he's going to present it otherwise because why not. ]

[sublimed]

So you're learning basics of being tidy.
I'm so proud of you, Mika. About time.

( you're an adult............ this should be basic knowledge and habit....... )

[outplayed]

wow, a rare praise from sae itoshi!
that makes it all worth it

[ ok but ness spoiled him and set him up to be a grown adult with no common sense skills so we should be applauding him for starting at a disadvantage! ]

didnt you say way back when you would reward me for that

[sublimed]

Isn't praise enough of a reward?

( even if it was sarcastic — )