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[outplayed]

I came here to meet you!       ( text | action | etc. )
... I want you to get in the way of my life.

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[outplayed]

what? no idk if nietzsche even knew what soccer is
like existential angst or whatever the fuck

[menkoi]

ok. i just have a feeling that a lot of your existential angst is going to be about soccer somehow

[outplayed]

you must think im dumb as a pile of fucking bricks
i know things outside of sports believe it or not.

[menkoi]

i think it's your career like you said and that you're serious about it???geez.

you really are having some angst

[outplayed]

maybe im not a REaL PuRE athlete or something
but i dont think existential angst can be about sports
nobody "needs" sports to exist

[menkoi]

idk. i guess not.

but i think plenty of people don't know what to do with themselves outside of their identity as "the best" at whatever

so what's your damage?

[ do u wanna talk about the crazy, michael... ]

[outplayed]

nice try but im actually so normal
all my damage is the standard damage you have when you have to start your career at 15 and worry about aging out by 30

[ taking refuge in audacity, you know.

also check back in a few days in case they finally start revealing his backstory in more detail— ]

[menkoi]

[ guess who was RIGHT about it being about SOCCER ]

ok yeah
i guess i wouldn't know anything about that right

[outplayed]

that is why im saying theres nothing to say
you already know
i already know
would be a boring shitty conversation to have

[menkoi]

most people talk about boring and shitty stuff.
it's "so normal"

i'd mind it less from you, i guess.

[outplayed]

... ok
then whats YOUR damage, you first

[menkoi]

[ what the hell is that supposed to mean delete delete delete ]

i'm going to need you to be more specific

since i'm not the one who brought angst into this conversation

[outplayed]

ok
what keeps you up at night

[menkoi]

huh?

[ that doesn't feel any more specific to answer... ]

idk i've never liked sleeping much
i could be doing things

getting better.

[outplayed]

so the pressure of getting better keeps you up at night? is what youre saying?

[menkoi]

i can't say it doesn't

no one wants to be a fuck up
but especially people who already know they aren't fuck ups

[outplayed]

you think?
id say its the people who have confidence that they arent fuck ups who tend to have the most stable performance, though

[menkoi]

it's not about stability. it's about getting there faster than the other guy.

[outplayed]

and being able to do that consistently is exactly what stability is, isnt it

[menkoi]

i don't like the word stable when the idea is to be constantly moving up, you know

the other guy is always getting better and so am i

[outplayed]

could be a difference in sports but i dont think thats all there is to success
its more about replicability of results
not every match can be your best, but every one has to be good enough

the on season is fucking long in my league, though, so i guess that changes how i think about it.

[menkoi]

maybe it is a sprinter thing

it's different when you're counting in milliseconds

[outplayed]

and you probably have fewer events every season, no?
ive got them dozens
so yeah, i guess it makes sense to measure success differently

[menkoi]

yeah. more exhibitions and time trials than competitions that mean anything, but when you get down to it

months of training and you have 400m to crush it or blow it
you know who's worth your attention and who the scrubs are immediately
beautiful 👌

[outplayed]

?
but then i think im still right
consistency and stability matter the most
everybody chokes at some point

you know they say the real bottleneck to going pro isnt physicality, its mentality