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[outplayed]

I came here to meet you!       ( text | action | etc. )
... I want you to get in the way of my life.

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[outplayed]

ok just as an example

[ JUST as a THEORETICAL example... ]

have you ever told him something about you that youve never told anybody else

[unjilt]

I can't think of anything right now but I'm sure I have.
I must have.
Probably.
I don't have many secrets, you know.

[outplayed]

ok it doesnt have to be a secret, i guess
have you ever cried in front of him and only him

[ kaiser doesn't know about the public crying/breakup incident, obviously, but it's probably good that he clarified— ]

[unjilt]

[ either way, in neither of those instances did he cry in front of nagi; he dreads thinking that he was seen by him, actually. ]

No.
I've had no reason to.
And I don't particularly want to.

[outplayed]

well maybe you should
doing stuff like that makes people want to actively support you more
assuming that youre close enough that it isnt just awkward and weird, that is

[unjilt]

Have you ever cried in front of Ness?

[outplayed]

no but ive told him things about me i wont ever tell anybody else

[ it was part of the psychological subordination process. closes my eyes. ]

[unjilt]

Do you really have secrets like that?

[outplayed]

kind of fucking rude of you to ask that...

yes, i do.

[unjilt]

I didn't mean anything by it, like I said I don't really have secrets so I'm trying to see if it's really that big a deal to tell someone one or some of them.

[outplayed]

of course you have secrets
literally everybody has secrets
or do you announce to everybody in the room how youre at any given point in time??

[unjilt]

I would if it wasn't insane.
Secrets are the mark of shame, aren't they?
I'm not really ashamed of anything.

[outplayed]

once again, you are being incredibly fucking rude to me right now...?

[ there is NOTHING shameful about his secrets!! ]

[unjilt]

Not everything I say is about you, you self-absorbed idiot.

But fine, I'm sure your secrets are not shameful at all.
You're the exception to the rule.

[outplayed]

you asked me if i have secrets and then said "secrets are the mark of shame" moments later?? so kind of asking for it, even if you didnt mean it

but fine, lets just say that was your social faux pas and move on
youre not comfortable looking weak in front of him, huh

[unjilt]

If you had said you have no secrets we could've bonded over that, but I'll take the L, as Nagi says. Hopefully using that right.


Of course I'm not comfortable.
I want to be perfect in front of him.

[outplayed]

and im saying thats working against you
if youre perfect to him then why would he ever feel like he needs to do anything for you?

[unjilt]

I want him to rely on me.
I want to take care of him.
I don't want him to leave because there's something I'm not doing right, or something he's missing, so I'm really trying here.

[outplayed]

... alright, let me sum it up for you
people dont "love" things that are perfect
if youre perfect then you can be be adored, like a piece of art or an icon
if youre imperfect then you can be loved [ "like a person"... he will not add. ]

[unjilt]

If that's how it is, “adored” sounds pretty good. I'll take anything at this point.

You must be pretty damn loved, huh.

[outplayed]

[ he said "can be loved", not "is loved", but— ]

yeah
duh
have you ever searched me on twitter?

[ surely reo would love to read the unhinged shit the kaiser girlies have to say! ]

[unjilt]

Oh, the #kaisae stuff?

[outplayed]

i mostly only look at my solo hashtags
but
dont talk to me about #kaisae until it finally outpaces #kaisagi

[ strangling himself over that one fr. ]

[unjilt]

Haha
I think that first one is just because people expect you two to be in the same group together.
The other one is just foul and mean.

[outplayed]

well yes
the first is like saying "i enjoy vintage wines" and the other is like saying "franzia is fine"

if you let me touch you in front of the cameras a bit then we can get #kaireo going too [ :) ]