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I came here to meet you!       ( text | action | etc. )
... I want you to get in the way of my life.

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that doesnt match with my personal aesthetic but yeah, its a nice color
i like red too, actually

[ just not as much as blue! ]

do you want to know something about my past, or something ive been thinking about lately in the present?

[cultist]

[ sango's heart drops just a little bit hearing that it doesn't match with him at all. it shouldn't mean that much, but sango does mean coral... what would a white boy know, but maybe that's his way of letting sango know. ]

i'll keep that in mind, i never knew coral didn't match your aesthetic.

[ hm! ]

your present, what have you thought about that could change the way i think of you?

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?
it doesnt have to
if its something you like then ill like it too

[ that's how it works... ]

well, i dont think that im particularly loving...
rather than that i guess "obsessive" is the word for it...

[cultist]

is that human nature to like what another person likes even if its not what you care for?

[ how curious.

why would he do that? what if sango lied about their interests and he decided to like them? ]

mimi, are you unable to love me?

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human nature? i dont know
thats just how i feel about it

[ how tf can he speak for humans when he doesn't identify with that species !!! ]

its more like i dont know
if ive never been loved then how can i know if i can love somebody else?
but im pretty sure i would love my child

[cultist]

you're a human when others talk about you, right? sometimes they call you a god, i'm trying to understand what you are. i've never had a proper connection with a human.

[ are you a human!! ]

i wasn't aware that's how it worked.
if by your standards that's how love works, then i don't know if i have ever given you love.
i'm sorry.

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am i? thats just what people say
im nothing of the sort
nobody wanted me to be born, i dont think i qualify as a human being

[ he's just a piece of shit :/ ]

?
nothing to be sorry about... i dont know how it works either...
how can i have standards for something that i dont understand? i only know what i want and what i dont want, or what i like and dislike
so dont be sorry its not your fault

[cultist]

[ that sudden wave of nausea, maybe a conversation like this isn't good for sango. their mouth feels dry, like cotton, and it hurts to swallow. ]

you were born, therefore you are alive like a human. mimi, i wish i could have what you do. please don't throw it away.

[ and they wish that kaiser wasn't a human at all. ]

you really do struggle, i thought i loved that about you. maybe you deserve someone who knows how love works and who can give you that. i want mimi to be the happiest if i cannot give you that love.

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i told you i didnt want to say if it made you think less of me

[ HE KNEW THIS WOULD HAPPEN!!! ]

now you dont want me anymore
now youre going to get rid of me too

[cultist]

how do i think less when i want you to have more?

i want to imagine you happier. isn't it unfair to keep you if i can't love you. don't you want that? to be loved?

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i dont know if i can love or be loved but i know that i can hate and ill hate you if you throw me aside because of this
i told you i didnt want to say and now you dont want me around anymore
why cant things just be the way they are now?

[cultist]

that's an emotion i know well enough. you shouldn't give up your chance at love by dealing with me, i've never existed anyway.

i won't leave you if you're sure you want this. do you want to be loved?

[ this reminds them of tsuna, they can't break her reality or she'll become destructive.

kaiser's reality, it's a fragile one. ]

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[ yes so be so much nicer to him!!!! also never leave!!!!!!!!! kaiser reserves the right to leave. ]

im okay with just being wanted by you
if you think you can love me all the better but ill take what i can get

[cultist]

it's not enough, i want to love you.
do you understand that i want to love you, and hug you?
you make me sound like leftovers... taking what you can get.
are you settling?

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no
i just dont want to be greedy because you already sounded like you want to leave me

[ does sango understand! this is their fault!! ]

i dont need a lot to survive so dont do that

[cultist]

i want to leave so you gain a surplus of love. should i take a bottle of medicine next to me?

[ tsuna ass behavior. ]

humans need lots of love.

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?
or youll leave and there wont be any love anyways so you left for no reason
that seems like the more likely outcome so you shouldnt leave in the first place

[cultist]

i see.
are you trying to manipulate me into staying, i thought we had a healthy relationship, mimi?

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how is this manipulation when im being very clear about what i want -_-
now youre finding more excuses to leave

[cultist]

you've never spoken to me like this before.

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how do you want me to talk to you?

[cultist]

in a way that you know you deserve to be loved.
i'll give you the same option, do you want something from my past or what i've thought about recently?

[outplayed]

[ okay. well. he doesn't know how to talk like that so kaiser is brushing past that. ]

something from your past

[cultist]

there's nothing particularly interesting about my past.

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whether i think thats true or not is for me to decide, isnt it...