A little. [ She spends a lot of time watching, going back over their conversations; Akane tells herself it is the challenge, the peculiarity of their acquaintanceship. ] I think you can, it wouldn't be fair otherwise, right?
[ on the other side, akane fidgets a little, and shyness overtakes the feeling of momentary bravado she displayed before. a performance is easy to do but what she could find out here might be unwanted. ]
I don't really need to ask to know more. Does that bother you?
[ that's a good question. kaiser has an immediate gut reaction, but he pauses to think about it through anyways, and decides that his logical response aligns with his instinct. ]
no, it doesn't bother me if things seem clear to you, then all that means is that youre perceptive... thats it.
a little discomfort is good for my personal development so i dont mind i wouldnt do something like this with just anybody, keep that in mind
[ with 99.99% of the other people kaiser might get into a business relationship with — and that list isn't very long in the first place — he would have provided a neurotic list of dozens of things that the other person can or can't do. but kaiser's pretty sure he can trust akane to act judiciously. ]
I know, which is why I will do my best. [ she can act the part perfectly, she needs to watch him a little longer and learn all his tells and fill in the gaps of who he is. from there she can figure out— ]
But I never did ask who your type is, out of curiosity.
[ laughter on the other end of the line; she presses her fingers against a warming cheek. she knows it is bullshit—at least she perceives it to be partially so. but there are some very basic truths here: beautiful yes, appearances are important to kaiser. intelligent? absolutely, he's smart and would get bored with someone who is less so. full of love?
akane puzzles that one out. maybe he means devoted? ]
That makes me really happy to hear, this would be hard if I wasn't sort-of your type.
[ he may be bullshitting about his type, but he certainly means it when the description fits akane quite well! if it makes her laugh, well, kaiser also won't complain about it. ]
i said youre just the perfect fit 🥺 so whats your type, then. blond and with a deep, crazed sort of melancholy?
and what does helping them entail? helping them do what they want? or helping them do whats for the best?
[ this is an intriguing question to kaiser because ultimately, kaiser knows most of what's wrong with him and simply refuses to fix it. if he got therapy, deprogrammed his mind, and tried to just live a normal life as best as possible... he probably could. but he won't! ]
i see... so thats the type of person you are depending on how you look at it, thats either very selfless or very selfish how do you see yourself, in that aspect?
good. dont lose sight of that not that i think this will happen... but if something ever comes between what i want and what you want, then you should always put your own goals first
[ kaiser like: "assert your ego or whatever the fuck"... ]
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[ more like this, but yeah. ]
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but i also think i can say about the same to you in turn, no?
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[ true enough it is that you can never truly know somebody else... but "enough" will suffice. ]
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[ meaning: she can pry but she is trying not to do so. ]
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if you need to know more then you should ask
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I don't really need to ask to know more. Does that bother you?
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no, it doesn't bother me
if things seem clear to you, then all that means is that youre perceptive... thats it.
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Thank you. I expect it goes both ways, and that's a little ... daunting.
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is it? but im so trustworthy 🥺
why worry 🥺
[ he's kidding, of course. but he doesn't plan on taking advantage, that's not what a partnership looks like!! ]
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his words are sweet, really. but in truth: ]
I just don't want you to be uncomfortable, it goes both ways.
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i wouldnt do something like this with just anybody, keep that in mind
[ with 99.99% of the other people kaiser might get into a business relationship with — and that list isn't very long in the first place — he would have provided a neurotic list of dozens of things that the other person can or can't do. but kaiser's pretty sure he can trust akane to act judiciously. ]
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But I never did ask who your type is, out of curiosity.
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somebody beautiful, intelligent, and full of love 💙
wow, youre just the perfect fit 🥺
[ i'm like. 95% sure kaiser was bullshitting when he said that originally. but also... ]
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akane puzzles that one out. maybe he means devoted? ]
That makes me really happy to hear, this would be hard if I wasn't sort-of your type.
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i said youre just the perfect fit 🥺
so whats your type, then. blond and with a deep, crazed sort of melancholy?
OMFG HE IS HER TYPE ASLKDJLKADLKA
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Too smart and tenacious for their own good. That's my type.
akane........ it's ok to have a type 🥺
but i think you can certainly take that type to heel if you really feel like it
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helping them do what they want?
or helping them do whats for the best?
[ this is an intriguing question to kaiser because ultimately, kaiser knows most of what's wrong with him and simply refuses to fix it. if he got therapy, deprogrammed his mind, and tried to just live a normal life as best as possible... he probably could. but he won't! ]
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[ LOL KAISER..... ]
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depending on how you look at it, thats either very selfless or very selfish
how do you see yourself, in that aspect?
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But I'm not selfless, there is something I want out of our arrangement too.
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not that i think this will happen... but if something ever comes between what i want and what you want, then you should always put your own goals first
[ kaiser like: "assert your ego or whatever the fuck"... ]
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