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[outplayed]

I came here to meet you!       ( text | action | etc. )
... I want you to get in the way of my life.

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[unjilt]

...Yeah, I don't.
Because it's not something I can say one-sidedly without sounding insane.

[outplayed]

[ well now he feels bad.... sike! no he doesn't. ]

then how about just your love
thats a touch more neutral, i guess

[unjilt]

Nagi...
My love...

[ ugh. his heart skipped a beat there. as much as he'd like to call nagi something intimate, thoughts of him rejecting reo with his oblivious indifference and lack of interest in general always sour his happy delusions before they bloom into anything else. he sighs, taking a moment to respond. ]

I don't know.
I don't think it would make him particularly happy to hear that.
Not that it would make him unhappy, it just... wouldn't make him happy.

[outplayed]

ok...
you could instead say it to make YOU happy? just a thought.

[unjilt]

[ :( ]

I'll think about it.
Thanks.

[outplayed]

[ not the sad cat ears... ]

cheer up, babygirl
youre just way too hot and rich to be this sad over a guy. trust me
take my pills or take my advice i really dgaf but maybe try taking something

[unjilt]

I didn't ask for this, okay.
And like I said, we're fine now, just... it feels like we're hanging on by a thread.
Maybe I should just try to relax.
Or maybe I should make him jealous after all - but if it doesn't work I'm gonna have to kill myself in front of him as plan B.

[outplayed]

fine, fine
ill give you even more advice since you dont like the advice i already gave -_-

[ kaiser: *pausing to quickly riffle through his handwritten notes on how to gaslight/girlboss/gatekeep/manipulate/mansplain/malewife* ]

has he ever seen you emotionally vulnerable before

[unjilt]

.........Like how?

[outplayed]

ok just as an example

[ JUST as a THEORETICAL example... ]

have you ever told him something about you that youve never told anybody else

[unjilt]

I can't think of anything right now but I'm sure I have.
I must have.
Probably.
I don't have many secrets, you know.

[outplayed]

ok it doesnt have to be a secret, i guess
have you ever cried in front of him and only him

[ kaiser doesn't know about the public crying/breakup incident, obviously, but it's probably good that he clarified— ]

[unjilt]

[ either way, in neither of those instances did he cry in front of nagi; he dreads thinking that he was seen by him, actually. ]

No.
I've had no reason to.
And I don't particularly want to.

[outplayed]

well maybe you should
doing stuff like that makes people want to actively support you more
assuming that youre close enough that it isnt just awkward and weird, that is

[unjilt]

Have you ever cried in front of Ness?

[outplayed]

no but ive told him things about me i wont ever tell anybody else

[ it was part of the psychological subordination process. closes my eyes. ]

[unjilt]

Do you really have secrets like that?

[outplayed]

kind of fucking rude of you to ask that...

yes, i do.

[unjilt]

I didn't mean anything by it, like I said I don't really have secrets so I'm trying to see if it's really that big a deal to tell someone one or some of them.

[outplayed]

of course you have secrets
literally everybody has secrets
or do you announce to everybody in the room how youre at any given point in time??

[unjilt]

I would if it wasn't insane.
Secrets are the mark of shame, aren't they?
I'm not really ashamed of anything.

[outplayed]

once again, you are being incredibly fucking rude to me right now...?

[ there is NOTHING shameful about his secrets!! ]

[unjilt]

Not everything I say is about you, you self-absorbed idiot.

But fine, I'm sure your secrets are not shameful at all.
You're the exception to the rule.

[outplayed]

you asked me if i have secrets and then said "secrets are the mark of shame" moments later?? so kind of asking for it, even if you didnt mean it

but fine, lets just say that was your social faux pas and move on
youre not comfortable looking weak in front of him, huh

[unjilt]

If you had said you have no secrets we could've bonded over that, but I'll take the L, as Nagi says. Hopefully using that right.


Of course I'm not comfortable.
I want to be perfect in front of him.