In part yes...but wouldn't it be nice to not? To be able to trust and be trusted without hesitation? If you had someone you really cared for it is best to be honest.
sure, that would be nice, but actually i agree with you... most humans cant help but doubt, dont you think? so i think its better to be at least a little transactional. so there something that both people can use to prove that whatever they share is real and tangible
would you? thats... surprisingly pure of you... dont get me wrong though, im not saying it in a bad way. you think you can tell when somebody is being sincere and direct?
but yeah, i think youre right as long as both sides are on the same page
i see... so, "people will eventually show their true colors", is where youre coming from
yeah, i understand that. i think in some cases, it might be impossible to tell if somebody is being sincere in a specific moment... but overall, youll always be able to figure out if theyre a sincere person in general. it just takes time.
Yes, something like that. But even in specific moments, if you look closely there are tells, especially if you know the person well but...
Hm. I think you would be a talented actor if you ever decided to switch your career but I don't think you're an insincere person, there is truth in your words.
i guess thats true like when people start talking differently or change their body language when lying?
[ but, putting aside kaiser's weird enthusiasm for reading psychology books... it takes him a moment to decide how to reply, because he was taken a touch off guard at how accurate that was. at heart, everything kaiser does or says comes from some sense of being true to who he is; he just tends to not reveal enough about what he's actually thinking for that to be obvious for most people. ]
most people wouldnt say that about me, you know? but i suppose you arent wrong... anyways, thats an interesting way of phrasing that. do you mean that actors are better if they have the ability to be insincere? that its an occupational hazard?
[ But, maybe that is a little too deep? Akane doesn't want to drag him into a conversation he's not willing to have, there simply isn't a point to prying here for the sake of it. ]
I know, but it's easier if people just think about the surface actions and nothing else, right? Safer that way, too.
Performers have to be good at lying, you're selling something to the public so yes, I'm saying that it is better to have the ability to be insincere. Just enough to do your job and survive. Does this surprise you?
[ something about the way that akane phrases that catches in kaiser's mind — "a liar's eyes", she says, and it both perplexes yet intrigues him. he'll file that one away to ponder later, because he's quite sensitive to others' gazes and his own, spends a lot of time actively trying to read others' expressions in a way that relies primarily on physical cues. but the way she phrases it makes it seem like something more inherent than movements or tells, so —
but for now, he'll move on. ]
no, not at all i think thats perfectly normal for anybody whose job puts them in the public eye, isnt it? you cant reveal everything about who you are, or you would feel like every negative word spoken about you is an attack on who you are... im sure theres no such thing as a celebrity who is perfectly sincere, even the ones who have a good reputation. though i also think its different for celebrities like you compared to ones more like me. different in the nature of the insincerity, perhaps?
[ because one's true nature has a way of emerging in moments of pressure, and, well — sports are essentially the modernization of trial by combat. ]
[ Akane can play a role to perfection—she becomes the person she is playing, she makes the lie become truth on stage or on screen, or even when she is out at events. It becomes a way to protect her shy, timid self. The public doesn't want a timid star, they want someone who can shine. So, Kaiser is right.
She imagines the same must be true in the case of football stars; on the field, during interviews, when people see them from afar...no, Akane doesn't feel it is vastly different. ]
That is true, a lie can protect you if you're in the public eye. Doing your best to maintain that is easier than letting the public see you as you are and tear you apart.
Maybe, do you mean to say all lies fall apart when you're in a match?
yeah, i agree with that, but even more than being a defense to protect yourself, it can also be a weapon to assert yourself too.
[ because, at heart, kaiser prefers to be solitary, has very few natural leadership qualities, and has the rizz of a stray cat that was picked up out of a dumpster. the persona he's picked up was deliberately chosen because he knows he needs to be a different person to achieve what he wants — somebody who can draw others to him, to force others to center themselves relative to him. ]
... under pressure, dont you think people will tend to reveal their true nature? its like that bit in the sherlock holmes short story. if theres a fire in the house, people will look towards what is most important to them first
Yes, it can be but I... [ Well, Akane is shy; she's ill-suited to the spotlight unless she is playing a role. When directed, she's more than dedicated to the role. ]...I guess you're right, especially if you want to win.[ she wants to win ]
An actor who falls apart under pressure isn't a very good one, you see? But if we're talking of other situations I think I can see what you mean.
That's a good example, would you look at what is most important first? Would you give into that sort of pressure? Or is it just on the field when you're just you?
[ kaiser asks the question, but after a few moments of self-reflection... yeah, he supposes there is. it must be some special kind of mental self-harm to watch all the movies his mother made after abandoning him, but he knows very well there are cases where one person's performance simply overpowers everybody else's — sometimes even to the movie's detriment, to the point that the individual performance is masterful yet the movie as a whole is worse for it. ]
never mind, that was a stupid question theres winning in pretty much everything where humans have to interact, i guess
but as for me... yeah. when im under pressure, the question that comes to my mind is... "who am i?", and then... "what do i want most?" soooo, how about you, then? what is it that you do, when youre under pressure?
And have you figured out who you are? I don't think acting is about that to me exactly, there have been times I've wanted to win on stage but mostly the reason is that it's fun to do this.
What I want most doesn't really come into mind, I am just someone else in that moment, and that someone else is me. I understand the character pretty well, it is like slipping into a new skin. So, when I'm under pressure that is what I do, slip into a character who can handle the pressure.
[ ...of course, Akane herself has a history of not being great with pressure, and it was on the media and all so, he may have heard it about it.
A character is less vulnerable than her true self. ]
i do think i know who i am, actually at least, i know the fundamentals of who i am
[ spoilers: It's Not Great, and they don't have to talk about it!
but yes, kaiser did make a point to look a little into akane's known public history, but not very deeply. there's a certain line that kaiser doesn't want to cross, things that he'd rather know about because he was told. it's not that he doesn't appreciate akane's approach, because he would if he knew of it — but he thinks there's something valuable about being told that simply can't be replaced. ]
i see. i guess this is some kind of fight or flight instinct, then? some people return to who they are under pressure, others do just the opposite? something like that...
There isn't anything wrong if you are still putting it together but because of what we do we don't get the same leeway as others.
People are always watching us and what we do, they have an idea of how we should be and project that onto us.
Probably it is, I guess it just varies from people to people. You're comfortable with the world seeing who you are, right? If you're the most you in the middle of a match, where the entire world is watching.
[ he'd like to complain about how he didn't sign up for any of this, but what would whining about it do? the bottom line is that he can't afford to be lax when it comes to his public image — it's one of the reasons that he's gotten and stayed involved with akane, after all. it's not just because she knows something that would greatly affect his public image, but also that he can admire what she's done to navigate her own. ]
i wouldnt say that im comfortable with it, exactly, but that being true to myself is important enough to me that im willing to risk showing who i am do you have anything like that? something you can sacrifice everything else for...
I used to have something important enough to sacrifice everything for but not any longer. So, I probably am not very good at giving you advice for this
I also can't tell you not to risk everything for something because that'd be hypocritical but maybe you can find a balance between
wait, you cant just say something like that and not elaborate??
[ spill the tea, girl... well, kaiser can respect that she might not want to let all that out at once. ]
ill let it slide this time, but you have to expect i will intrusively pry about it later, okay...
anyways, youre right about that i think im a decent risk taker, though maybe it doesnt seem like it... but i dont really make impulsive decisions most of the time...
...maybe I shouldn't be surprised that you haven't pried into all the rumours online about me.
Anyway, we are talking about you, not me.
[ Deflection 101! ] You don't? I assumed a lot of you sports types were impulsive by nature, you know when you're in the field. Instinct is impulsive, don't you think?
dont think theres much of a point in looking into things like that very far, if its a rumor on the internet then it could be a lie or it could be a partial truth, but itll never be the whole picture you tell me as much as you want, when you feel like it
[ he's either understanding like that, or more likely, kaiser thinks this is a better approach to get akane to spill the tea... ]
i think it depends on person to person... but personally, for me, instinct is more like intuition. like a feeling of, "if i do this, itll definitely work" but for me, the basis of intuition is rationality and factual, everything i do is something ive visualized myself doing before... well, there sure are morons who move entirely on impulse, of course.
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wouldnt you get embarrassed being so direct with something like that?
[ he's phrasing this as if he would when he absolutely would not... but he wants to know what she thinks on the matter. ]
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You're pretty famous, so when there is someone you like you need to be very direct about it because it can affect your career.
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[ that's not said as a negative, though — it's more of an observation. ]
so if you wanted to date somebody, you would prefer to think about the transactional angle over the emotional one? i mean, youre well-known too...
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most humans cant help but doubt, dont you think?
so i think its better to be at least a little transactional. so there something that both people can use to prove that whatever they share is real and tangible
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It helps in that sense but if the transactional part is too big then you know it's probably not real
That's okay though as long as both sides know
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dont get me wrong though, im not saying it in a bad way.
you think you can tell when somebody is being sincere and direct?
but yeah, i think youre right
as long as both sides are on the same page
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But you understand this too, right? I feel like you're the sort of person who would.
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yeah, i understand that.
i think in some cases, it might be impossible to tell if somebody is being sincere in a specific moment...
but overall, youll always be able to figure out if theyre a sincere person in general. it just takes time.
then, how about me? do you think im sincere?
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Hm. I think you would be a talented actor if you ever decided to switch your career but I don't think you're an insincere person, there is truth in your words.
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like when people start talking differently or change their body language when lying?
[ but, putting aside kaiser's weird enthusiasm for reading psychology books... it takes him a moment to decide how to reply, because he was taken a touch off guard at how accurate that was. at heart, everything kaiser does or says comes from some sense of being true to who he is; he just tends to not reveal enough about what he's actually thinking for that to be obvious for most people. ]
most people wouldnt say that about me, you know?
but i suppose you arent wrong...
anyways, thats an interesting way of phrasing that. do you mean that actors are better if they have the ability to be insincere? that its an occupational hazard?
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[ But, maybe that is a little too deep? Akane doesn't want to drag him into a conversation he's not willing to have, there simply isn't a point to prying here for the sake of it. ]
I know, but it's easier if people just think about the surface actions and nothing else, right? Safer that way, too.
Performers have to be good at lying, you're selling something to the public so yes, I'm saying that it is better to have the ability to be insincere. Just enough to do your job and survive. Does this surprise you?
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but for now, he'll move on. ]
no, not at all
i think thats perfectly normal for anybody whose job puts them in the public eye, isnt it? you cant reveal everything about who you are, or you would feel like every negative word spoken about you is an attack on who you are... im sure theres no such thing as a celebrity who is perfectly sincere, even the ones who have a good reputation.
though i also think its different for celebrities like you compared to ones more like me. different in the nature of the insincerity, perhaps?
[ because one's true nature has a way of emerging in moments of pressure, and, well — sports are essentially the modernization of trial by combat. ]
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She imagines the same must be true in the case of football stars; on the field, during interviews, when people see them from afar...no, Akane doesn't feel it is vastly different. ]
That is true, a lie can protect you if you're in the public eye. Doing your best to maintain that is easier than letting the public see you as you are and tear you apart.
Maybe, do you mean to say all lies fall apart when you're in a match?
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but even more than being a defense to protect yourself, it can also be a weapon to assert yourself too.
[ because, at heart, kaiser prefers to be solitary, has very few natural leadership qualities, and has the rizz of a stray cat that was picked up out of a dumpster. the persona he's picked up was deliberately chosen because he knows he needs to be a different person to achieve what he wants — somebody who can draw others to him, to force others to center themselves relative to him. ]
... under pressure, dont you think people will tend to reveal their true nature?
its like that bit in the sherlock holmes short story. if theres a fire in the house, people will look towards what is most important to them first
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An actor who falls apart under pressure isn't a very good one, you see? But if we're talking of other situations I think I can see what you mean.
That's a good example, would you look at what is most important first? Would you give into that sort of pressure? Or is it just on the field when you're just you?
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[ kaiser asks the question, but after a few moments of self-reflection... yeah, he supposes there is. it must be some special kind of mental self-harm to watch all the movies his mother made after abandoning him, but he knows very well there are cases where one person's performance simply overpowers everybody else's — sometimes even to the movie's detriment, to the point that the individual performance is masterful yet the movie as a whole is worse for it. ]
never mind, that was a stupid question
theres winning in pretty much everything where humans have to interact, i guess
but as for me... yeah. when im under pressure, the question that comes to my mind is... "who am i?", and then... "what do i want most?"
soooo, how about you, then? what is it that you do, when youre under pressure?
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What I want most doesn't really come into mind, I am just someone else in that moment, and that someone else is me. I understand the character pretty well, it is like slipping into a new skin. So, when I'm under pressure that is what I do, slip into a character who can handle the pressure.
[ ...of course, Akane herself has a history of not being great with pressure, and it was on the media and all so, he may have heard it about it.
A character is less vulnerable than her true self. ]
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at least, i know the fundamentals of who i am
[ spoilers: It's Not Great, and they don't have to talk about it!
but yes, kaiser did make a point to look a little into akane's known public history, but not very deeply. there's a certain line that kaiser doesn't want to cross, things that he'd rather know about because he was told. it's not that he doesn't appreciate akane's approach, because he would if he knew of it — but he thinks there's something valuable about being told that simply can't be replaced. ]
i see.
i guess this is some kind of fight or flight instinct, then? some people return to who they are under pressure, others do just the opposite? something like that...
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People are always watching us and what we do, they have an idea of how we should be and project that onto us.
Probably it is, I guess it just varies from people to people. You're comfortable with the world seeing who you are, right? If you're the most you in the middle of a match, where the entire world is watching.
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[ he'd like to complain about how he didn't sign up for any of this, but what would whining about it do? the bottom line is that he can't afford to be lax when it comes to his public image — it's one of the reasons that he's gotten and stayed involved with akane, after all. it's not just because she knows something that would greatly affect his public image, but also that he can admire what she's done to navigate her own. ]
i wouldnt say that im comfortable with it, exactly, but that being true to myself is important enough to me that im willing to risk showing who i am
do you have anything like that? something you can sacrifice everything else for...
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I also can't tell you not to risk everything for something because that'd be hypocritical but maybe you can find a balance between
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[ spill the tea, girl... well, kaiser can respect that she might not want to let all that out at once. ]
ill let it slide this time, but you have to expect i will intrusively pry about it later, okay...
anyways, youre right about that
i think im a decent risk taker, though
maybe it doesnt seem like it... but i dont really make impulsive decisions most of the time...
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Anyway, we are talking about you, not me.
[ Deflection 101! ] You don't? I assumed a lot of you sports types were impulsive by nature, you know when you're in the field. Instinct is impulsive, don't you think?
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you tell me as much as you want, when you feel like it
[ he's either understanding like that, or more likely, kaiser thinks this is a better approach to get akane to spill the tea... ]
i think it depends on person to person... but personally, for me, instinct is more like intuition. like a feeling of, "if i do this, itll definitely work"
but for me, the basis of intuition is rationality and factual, everything i do is something ive visualized myself doing before...
well, there sure are morons who move entirely on impulse, of course.
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OMFG HE IS HER TYPE ASLKDJLKADLKA
akane........ it's ok to have a type 🥺
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